i feel sick to my stomach right now

and i have a massive headache.  and do you know what i'm convinced would make me feel better?

yup- a nice big KFC bowl of crap. 

now when you wonder where i got these eating habits- just take a look at what my mom had for lunch...

we might have a new apartment.

surprisingly- i have good credit.  who would have guessed?

when turning in the application i mentioned that i'm in debt management, and that my credit isn't that great but i'm in the process of repairing it, etc. 

he called tonight and asked, "what did you mean you don't have good credit.  your score is 685."  so apparently years of debt management payments have already worked.  

so tomorrow we have to give randy notice that april will be our last month here and come to terms with kirk on move in date- but new apartment!  

it has heat!  (of course the cold season is mostly over.)  the windows open for air conditioning units!  two dedicated parking spots and they're not tandem!!!! (worth their weight in gold.)

so goodbye echo park.  hello koreatown.

jon stewart

the first lady fashion show

i think the above clip does say a lot. 

has michelle obama done things that i don't know about because i haven't been paying attention?

has michelle obama done things that i don't know about because the media only focuses on her clothing?

or

has michelle obama not done anything yet as the first lady besides attend functions? is that really what she wants her legacy to be?

in some ways, i'd give her a pass.  she's got two young kids, and her husband's job does require a lot of out of her even if she didn't have her own first lady agenda.  but, when you're a smart, educated, experienced woman- in the position she is to do good- should you waste the chance?

going to the grocery store with no appetite

is just as bad as going hungry.  it's a waste of time.

wandering up and down each aisle, dismissing all foods as "not appetizing."

i went to do my week's grocery shopping and came back with triscuits, cheese, 3 apples, instant breakfast and a 12 pack of coke.  wow, that can really sustain a person.

this means more trips to the grocery are in store for me this week.  i'm making more of an effort to try and cook food lately, and keep things around that i can cook.  not working late all of the time helps.  when you get home from work at 8 every night, the last thing you want to do is spend 45 minutes cooking before you even begin to eat.  now i'm usually home by 7, and it isn't as much of a chore.  

cleaning up after cooking still is.  i can't wait to live someplace with a better kitchen, and maybe a working dishwasher. 

Leslie got a job

which means we can move. 

i actually can't wait to move.  i love this apartment for what it is- but am tired of the drawbacks.  

i want an apartment where i have a real closet.  i can't wait for a real closet. 

with an oven and a bigger kitchen. (i know, i don't cook- but it would be nice to have the option.)

with heat.

with screens on the windows. 

with a bathroom that doesn't have an unpainted patch on the wall from when our landlord had mold removed. (at least the wall has been patched.  we went several months with a plastic tarp taped over the area until he finally got a drywaller in to do the patch.)

one that doesn't have random leaks and flood problems.

and one where maybe, just maybe- we could have a washer and dryer.

one where my bedroom is large enough for a queen sized bed. (i need a new bed but i've been putting it off til we move- because if my bedroom is large enough for a queen sized bed, i want it.)

and having someplace grown up.  i want to live in a grown up apartment. 

things i'm going to miss:  my view,  our street,  how cool our apartment stays through most of the summer, and  well right now, even as much as i love this apartment... i so desperately want to move that i'm having a hard time coming up with a list of the things i love. 

i want to start packing already.

Really. I mean really?

I finally felt mostly better, except for a pain in my side from
coughing, and the cough and intermittent breathing problems. The pain
in my side has only gotten worse. Last night I couldn't sleep because
of the pain, and this morning it took me 5 tries to even sit up in bed
the pain was so bad.

So I spent 15 minutes on the phone with my insurance company talking
to a nurse to determine whether I should go to an urgent care or
regular doctor. The doctor wouldn't have an xray machine, and I didn't
want to have to go to the doctor twice.

They said- no. Just go to your regular doctor today or tomorrow. It's
not anything you need an xray for.

I go to the doctor who says, "it could still be pnemonia. The cough
you have is what triggered this. One lung sounds congested, but okay.
The one on your bad side could be pnemonia."

So, I have pain killers, muscle relaxers and steroids. I have to go
somewhere else for an xray tomorrow. Two doctors visits. Exactly what
I wanted to avoid.

Plus, she's said I need to stay at home, in bed, and rest. I've
already had to take 3 unpaid days because of this, and I guess another
one this week (half day today, half day tomorrow.) who knows what
she'll say if it is pnemonia (which I think is also contagious.)

So like I said... Really. I mean really? I just want to get better.

my moment of zen

I've been watching Jon Stewart for 10 years now.  

1999- end of the clinton administration- good fodder for funny.

2000- the first indecision.  indecision 2000- george w. v. al gore.  what could be funnier?

2001- the swearing in of george w, leading to 8 years of prime, prime material.  the writers couldn't have made up better stuff to work with.

2008- indecision 2008- while mccain is no george w.,  they still had plenty to work with.

which brings us to now.  barack obama.  the question was- could he still be funny with someone with a brain, respectability, and who actually won the election in the white house? 

answer- yes.  he takes his shots at obama.  sure- he goes easy.  he doesn't have to dig into him.  he's got the economic failure of our country and the house and senate dealing with it to rip in to.  what would he be doing without the clusterf*&k to the poor house?  i don't know, but at least there's one upside to what's going on right now.